Good news. I am healthy again after 18 months. I visited the doctor in June and took several blood tests. All were negative, including HIV and Syphilis. The doctor said, "Whatever infection you had is gone now, leaving only a rash." No medicine or antibiotics were necessary, and within a few days the rash also was gone. Now I can proudly say that, although it took 18 months, I have finally healed everything without medicine!
That is really great, so now I can reboot my life. I am already figuring out a 2 bedroom apartment and car, after which I will check out some dance clubs for a girlfriend. Maybe then I will finally move to India like I was planning to do 2 years ago.
I still get Hare Krishnas in my head, but don't think even for one minute that I am causing it. I can prove this, because I can clearly identify in most cases exactly who these Hare Krishnas are by name. I would describe it more like ghostly haunting. There is absolutely nothing wrong with me, but for someone who doesn't believe in ghosts or someone who is atheist, this may be difficult to understand.
Most of the Hare Krishnas who bother me are somehow connected to the 'rape' which was forced on me in Fiji. The trickster marriage arrangement that appeared good-looking before the marriage, and monsterously ugly and gigantically fat only 2 weeks thereafter. The so-called marriage is now legally dissolved and anulled because it was fraudulent. It was a deceptive trick, it was not legal, and there was no consummation of marriage. Yet, the Hare Krishnas still haunt me.
Just today, Visvanath dasa appeared, looking like a Mafia criminal and overpowering me with the thought of horrendous injustice. Then his father, Jairam dasa appeared, defending Visvanath dasa and the rape he caused by saying "It seemed to us that you have a problem with money." He was implying that they thought I was so poor, they were justified to trick me into marrying a fat woman.
I tried to defend and explain to him but I felt weak and nobody could hear me. They completely ignored every word I said. But honestly, they were wrong. That is, I do not have any problem with money, in fact far opposite. I have an Ivy league degree and my income is high, higher than engineers, and I have the potential to become a millionaire. I also have a lot of savings. So honestly, I am not poor at all! If I did not flaunt this money to Jairam dasa and Visvanath dasa and they have no idea of it, then they misunderstood! For example, I had only just begun work at exactly the time when the rape occured. If they had not done that to me, my income would have soon been a lot more obvious!
Then Jairam dasa menacingly appeared in my head disregarding everything I said and motioning with his hand for money. He said that my description of income means nothing to them, and they care only for how much I donate -- nothing else.
I quickly explained that he should have waited. I had not started working yet, and was only just beginning when they raped me. I did not see any reason to donate before I start working, but I was waiting until after I start. To me that was reasonable, yet they did not wait!
Again Jairam dasa completely ignored me. To him, there was no excuse. Either I donate, or they rape. No exceptions. They would not listen. They would not wait until I start work.
I tried to defend saying how can you attack my income, you do not even earn as much as me! How can you rape me with a fat woman, you never had a girlfriend as good as Linda! Honestly, Linda is better than nearly ever single Hare Krishna female in the entire movement. On top of that, she is also closer to God in her heart than most Hare Krishnas, and that without even being a Hare Krishna!
Again they completely ignored me. It seems like it is useless to try and defend. Only the Hare Krishna attack had an impact. So regardless of the truth, regardless of my high income, and regardless of Linda's beauty, they feel justified to have raped me with a fat woman claiming that "It seemed like you have a problem with money."
It is like I am helpless against this haunting injustice. Yet for 18 months, I lived alone and sick. Definitely the isolation made me vulnerable to their haunting. But, now that I am healthy again, I will meet females and that will change everything. How can Jairam dasa attack me, meanwhile a female is right here by my side?
Vrindavan dasa
Victor Epand
