repulsewarrior wrote:...it was off the wall, but i can understand why you put it up. A woman who is sensitive would understand that the meaning exists but that there is more to it than meets their eyes. I would keep trying; frankly, as i imagine you, why not set up several personas, that could be interesting.
The truth is it was a terrible thing to write
I just don't know how to communicate who I am. I went out with a girl years ago who lived in Southgate where there are many Cypriots. She told me that she had observed Cypriots in the UK to be ignorant louts, I can't remember the exact words she used, but it was something to this effect, driving round in there cars generally behaving like barbarians. Insulting as it was, I recognised some truth in that stereotype, but it is not me, I am educated to have the etiquette of a reserved English gentleman, and this is the problem, people see me as English. How can I communicate the whole background that makes me non-white. How can I communicate that when I talk to "black" people, for example, I relate on a shared history of colonialism and migration. Even "black" girls who go out with me do so because they want to go out with a "white" boy, but that is not me. If I was an ignorant Charlie it would be different, girls would know what they were getting. My cousin once remarked that she didn't like North London Cypriots because they all think that they are "black". Isn't that the definition of a Charlie. The fact is I am an intellectual Charlie, and I can't seem to get that across. It's not that I want to be pigeon holed, it's that I don't want to have to explain the obvious.
