by Mapko » Sat Apr 28, 2012 3:44 pm
yrys...You stated "...there are times in moments when I can become oppressive toward others but I am aware of this and change my actions immediately", but then you stated "...I do not let others dictate my actions". That's a big contradiction. Now, either you oppress people because you enjoy oppressing people (it's not your fault - it's bred in to you), or people goad you in to oppressing them.
I feel as though you are a 12/13 year old fat kid and you sit in your bedroom watching the village children playing out together. You go to school with a ruck sack on your back, full of food, and watch everyone enjoying themselves. You go home and post topics on various internet forums about how you love everyone and everything. The dark thing is, if you haven't already, you will start to torture and murder little animals - as you progress from the insects you've killed. It won't be long before you move on to people. Do yourself a favour - end it now. There are 14 virgins waiting for you in Allah's kingdom.