We in all different stages of life think we know everything!! WRONG
I remember when i was a teenager, i thought everyone hates me,
i had trouples with my family, friends and everyone i knew.. GOSH i hated this era of my life..!!
i thought i know everything,, i thought life is easy, all you have to do is try to live it!!
Then i grew up a bit and thought , gosh what a loser!! the people i thought they hate me, they loved me very much to care and try to help me !!
so lesson No One: People who care The ones who dont agree with you and do their best to stop you before you destroy yourself.
When i started going to uni i hated being different , not going with the flow!,
i tried hard to stop being smart and start being fun (shallow) and i made hell load of friends who didnt care about anything but where we going out
and witch boys are hot, instead of being the bullied as i used to be ive become the bullier and instead of people loving me, people feared me because im mean.. when it all finished i figuered out it wasnt worth it.
so lesson No Two: dont change your self to be accepted, appreciate your self the way you are cause your self is the only person you will live with and will never leave you.
during the last 2 years of uni, i wanted to love and be loved as all the girls i know, where i come from beauty standerd is different than most of the world, beautiful girls have to be big size girls, big ass, white skin and silk hair and i was far away from that i was, still am, skinny , small, big curley hair and darker skin tone so boys held no interest in me, i tried to eat alot to gain weight, use product to get my skin lighter and straight my hair and use lots of powder on my face to look like white girls yet i didnt fall in love or being loved till one day i met a beautiful boy who saw me with no make up on , my hair wasnt straight and he loved me the way i am because he saw me very beautiful , funny and star alike.
so lesson No Three: you are beautiful wether you are fat, skinny , white, black or asian !! and for someone to love you , if its not for what you are then he isnt worth it , and love will come to you .
i was such a bad little girl, in my society girls arent allowed to uncover their hair, smoke cigs or have boyfriends and of course i was the rebel one or the black cheep, i struggeled to prove my self and challenge what people think is right and wrong, i didnt want to get married , stay home and be a slave for a man who will treat me no better than a sex toy and a cleraner, so i decided to say no thank you im better off, yes i failed many many times to overcome all the happits, traditions and society right and wrong scale but i finally made it all in my own and freed my self.
so lesson No Four: never give up fighting for your self, freedom or the life you want to have, and when you fall apart and hit the ground , take your time, pick your self up and try again.. never stay broken cause no one will fix you up, only you have what it takes for you to reach your goals.
life goes on, i lost people, people die, people move away or simply people change and some times it isnt fair , some time its sad but time cure and heal every thing.
so lesson No Five: learn to accept the things you cant change cause it is the 1st important step in moving on and healing.
ive also learned not to control people`s life, and let them try and fail cause no one learns from other peoples mistakes and if you never made mistakes you never learn.
ive learned to not change people because when they do change they no longer the poeple you knew, so let it be and let them be who they are.
ive learned that Karma always come back to bite you, so make sure when you do something real bad to expect that sooner or later it will come back to you.
and the most important of all, ive learned that inever stop learning and every day there is a new lesson for me ..
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