ive lost my best friend lately and its completly my fault.
i toke the piss out of him, i was arrogant, i treated him so bad.
i sold him out! didnt keep his secrets, made so many problem with his girlfriend casue he was always there for me (she didnt like that).
when i was sick he was there, when i was happy he was there, when i had
too many problems he sat down and was thinking with me.
when ever i needed him he was always there but when he needed me i acted like a spoiled kid, i didnt listen and i didnt care!! and expected him to be around.. what ever happen i knew deep inside he wont go away.
but he did and its all because of me being so bad
now that i lost my bestfriend i realized how stupid i was, how selfish and self centerd i was !!
.. and i would like to say to P my best friend im so sorry for being such a bitch with you.
but words are not enough i guess.
have you ever done stuff you regreted badly !! how to fix things. and how can i gain the trust of my best friend again knowing that i deeply love him more than my own family:(