by Get Real! » Thu May 29, 2008 2:13 am
Echoes from the Dead Zone: Across the Cyprus Divide By Yiannis Papadakis p.196- 197
BETRAYAL
'My father was a farmer. We were doing OK until 1963 when the killings broke out. I was only a boy then, feeling so afraid the Rums would kill us. The Green Line was drawn, the land was divided and my father's land, our fields, had become "the other side".' Jemal's eyes dampened as he spoke of how his father was killed. Jemal was in his late thirties, and he invited me to his house to talk and to meet his children:
My father was a stubborn man. 'So what, I have been going there all my life, who will stop me now? Anyway, all the Rums around are my friends,' So he kept on going there. The TMT came to our house and told us that he should stop. The new 'law' was no working on the other side- no relations, no trade, no nothing with the Rums. And, of course, no speaking Greek among ourselves. But my father was stubborn like a donkey. He kept on going. One day a Rum friend of my father took him aside and cautioned him. 'Don't come here any more. It's too dangerous. I don't know if I can help you if anything goes wrong.' He said that his own son had taken arms and joined the groups fighting against us. My father would not listen. 'I only fear God, nothing else,' he said and kept on going.
One day the TMT came to our house again. 'Hey Mustafa, come with us. we just want to talk,' they called and he went. Late in the night I heard my mother's screams, like a dog was being slaughtered. My father came back with his face alt broken and bloody. 'It's nothing,' he said, 'I fell on a doorstep.' But later he told Ihe family what had happened. I only found out after many years that they had beaten him with his head covered. One day five months later, my father did not come back from the fields. We started searching. First his dog was found, the one he used to take with him out in the fields. Then his body. The TMT came at once. 'You see, we told him not to go there.' They even told us the name of the killer. He was a Rum who drove a lorry. Bui later, when I was around sixteen perhaps, I began to hear things. That he was not killed by the Rums. That TMT killed him. But I refused to believe them. It was impossible to believe them.
I joined the TMT as soon as I was allowed to carry a gun because I hated Rums so much. I don't know what made me change later. I think it was two things, the university and the war in 1974.
He went on:
In 1974 i understood what TMT really meant. When the Rums attacked us and my friend right next to me was injured, none of those brave TMT guys came to help. It was confusion in the war, the Rums were attacking us in the village and we had explosives stored all around us. I kept calling for help to carry them away, otherwise we would all get blown up, but they just sat there talking or giving orders. They were so scared they were going crazy, saying all kinds of things that just came into their heads. Like one said: 'Let us dig a big hole underground and hide the women and children there.' You know Yianni, it's not impossible that some of the mass graves of Turkish Cypriots from 1974 were created like that, by a lunacy that someone like him came up with.
After the war I went to university. In Turkey I started to see things differently and hear other things from Turkish Cypriot students around me. And then one day I went back to our house. Now I had to know. 'Why didn't you tell me that my father was killed by the TMT? That so and so killed him?' It was like a bomb fell in the house. Everybody froze. 'For us the issue is closed,' my uncle said. 'It's not good to talk about these things, it's not safe,' my mother said. In the beginning they didn't want to talk about it, but when they realized that I knew everything they told me what happened.
How a TMT man killed my father under orders, how other Turkish Cypriots were killed by TMT and were later declared 'martyrs', as if they had been killed by Rums. And how the TMT even came to tell us the name of the killer, who was not the real killer.
That way they could kill two birds with one stone. Say that my father was killed by a Rum and make us take revenge and create more animosity. From then on I couldn't stand the TMT. I felt ashamed for having been one of them, and for being so nationalist in the past. Many people were killed by TMT but people still pretend that they don't know, even though everyone does. The worst thing was to grow up thinking that your father was killed by the Rums and then find out.
Can you understand how I felt, Yianni?